InSearchForAReasons

The time where i could forget everything and just keep on going straight

Two things, Riding my Bike and swimming, well riding is out of the question since I care about everyone around me and i never want to lose them. I'm once back to my older days where i swim just to tire myself so i could forget about my unhappiness, my stresses, my day. Why the reasons still remains the same? Every lap i swam, memories just floats away. All i could think is just keep on going straight. Every time i'm unhappy i'll blog it, it's seems i'm a pretty unhappy person all day round.

I'm hurting right now, i've stop asking myself " why " because i could never find the answer. The answer is not with me, the answer is with you. I'm caught in the middle of my promise with you and my desires to be with you. I'm living such a tough life, FML? Fuck my life? Why would i always use FML? Is my life really that fucked up?
Or isit i'm the period of life where i starting to feel the pressure of adult hood?
Or i'm in the period of life where i started to think of my future?
Or i'm in the period of life where i wish u were in it?

I'm devastated