InSearchForAReasons

I regretted not stopping you, if not all these would never happen

I know it's selfish of me to only ask help when i need it. Please Don't take her away from me now, i still have so many things i want to do with her. I want her to be there in my life, i want her to be there when i get married and i want her to see my first child. So please Not now please not now...when i see her my heart just drop, it's so painful to see. I'm feeling so helpless.....

How u know He/She the right person

My Experiences

He/She

Makes you sad
Makes you happy
Makes you laugh
Makes you angry
Makes you jealous
Makes you cry
Makes you worried
Makes you feel Complete
You want them to feel safe with you around
You want them to say " I trust you "
You hate yourself the most if you knew you did something wrong to them
Makes you think everything would be better as long as they are around
Last person you think of before you sleep
First person you think of when you wake up
Love songs just seems much much more meaningful
You start doing things you cant explain
Their life prioritize before yours
You start to do all sorts of things just to bring back that smile on their face
You want them to notice you first before others
You want them to share their sorrows with you
You want them to share their joy with you
You want them to share their food with you
You want to share your food with them
Telling yourself if you could just hold their hand you'll be the happiest person in the universe

There are so many more, these are just the few I've experienced
You have all these feelings because of One reason... You Cared

I wonder how does my grandma feels? Did she thought of grandpa everyday? Did she get a flashback of the first time knowing him till the day he passed on. My grandma would miss him most. Wonder how my grandma manage to keep that smile, she's a strong woman, I wanna be like her. The feeling of losing a loved one must be too painful to comprehend.

There's nothing else i can do ... how it all ends depends on you now. Knowing there's nothing i could do to help the situation but i feel something must be done. Feeling helpless, there's nothing i could do. Knowing the true meaning of " giving and taking ", this time i'm taking. If there's nothing done, i have a strong feeling of giving it all up.

Taking a test on life,
Question 1 How important do you cherish the people around you? Whats your answer?
Question 2 Have you ever place yourself in their shoes? Whats your answer?
Question 3 Are you willing to put down everything to fix things right?

This is not about taking initiative any longer, it's about what must be done not by someone else but you.

Occupying myself with my music, back to my guitar. I hope my guitar could help me through this time of life.

What Tom will tell himself,

What are you trying to pull? You think it's fun playing with people's feelings? You think you're the only one suffering? You doesn't appreciate what i have done. Why would i go running towards a dead end since i knew it long ago. I'll just have to find someone else whom appreciate and takes everything i says seriously. This shows i still have a life to live for i'm not gonna let you pull me back. This doesn't make me the bad guy this just shows i'm moving forward.

This is what Tom will tell himself

People never stop judging and assuming. Do u want to be the people or do u want to be yourself.

I've once let my impulsion get a hold of me...Why people always think i didn't did my best? Why? The Perfect Place....the spot where i could see the moon and the stars. I would like to bring you there someday. Words cant explain how painful my heart feels , you're so close and yet so far. He said it's not wrong to express your feelings, but why every time i express it someone gets hurt. What truth is there to it? I'm tired of living.....

Running and stopping for the girl you loved

This story was told to me by someone inspiring, he told me this story when i was at the lowest point of my life. Here goes....

IF SHE IS

Chasing after the girl of your dreams the girl you loved, how long could you chase? How long could you keep at your pace? There will be a point where you'll get tired get depressed. That will be your green light to stop chasing and think. Is this girl worth it? If she is.....

Try chasing the moon, will you ever reach it? That depends on how much you'll willing to put in, so when you grow tired and stop chasing. Look up in the night sky tomorrow what did you see? It's the moon...What does it means? As long as you're willing to keep chasing for that girl you loved...and sadness came to haunt you. Don't give up, she'll still be there the next day. The moon will never run away, is you that whose running away from the moon.

IF SHE'S NOT

Chasing after the girl of your dreams the girl you loved, how long could you chase? How long could you keep at your pace? There will be a point where you'll get tired get depressed. That will be your green light to stop chasing and think. Is this girl worth it? If she's not.....

The girl is the moon..she shines the brightest and she's the biggest in the night sky. With her brightness you're blinded by something smaller and something as bright just that it's further away. The star is something you're looking for. The moon will never treats you better then that burning star. So give up on that moon and look for the burning star which Loves you more then you could imagine. Yes it's hard to search for that burning star in the vast sky, don't give up hope because once you found the burning star., you'll be glad you gave up on the moon and found that burning star which Shines Brighter and Much bigger in the vast night sky.

Going Back to the corner
where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag
I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard,
got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl
can you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money,
they don't understand
I'm not broke, I'm just
a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense
but what else can I do?
How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you?

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

I'm going to give my time away for a greater cause. I'm going through a tough time and time is the best first aid for heart wounds. I'm going to volunteer myself to a school for the special. I want to change, I want to bring back that smile, I want to see life in a different way. I hope I'll bring back their smile and in return they'll bring back mine

It takes greater courage to get up when down

Realizing my weakness and have it change into my strength

I have to change a mindset inside of me, i've always told myself to only change for myself. I am wrong, It's take a much greater reason and realization that someday you'll have yourself change for the better for someone else.

I want to show people around me what i can do
I want you to realize i'm no longer the old me
I want you to realize there's something new awaiting
I want to be someone u can Trust
I want to be stronger for you