InSearchForAReasons

How Sensitive are you to the people around you? Able to sense the mood and emotions from the people around you, are emotions detectable? Are you be able to feel and do something about it? I once asked myself how influential am i, now i think it's all depends. People whom care would notice. People whom doesn't couldn't care less. There will be people whom ask just for sake of asking, don't ask why, i've no idea why i do it sometimes. Some people ask because they do care. People whom care even more, are willing to do something about it. Do u have someone in your life u would care for and want to do something whenever there's something wrong with him/her? Or there's someone in life you would want him/her to care for you and wanting them to do something for you when u feel down? Well......i Do

My Respect for females grew to a whole new level....
I've watched this Singapore movie " We are not naughty ". I was in awe of the part when the women was giving birth. The process strikes me, the pain they have to go through during labor is just unimaginable for any guys. Found a new Respect for them. So guys go to your mom, give her a hug and say u love her. For guys planning to get married, treat your partners better, they earned it. And for all MCP guys get a grip and respect females.

To all Moms and Moms-soon-to-be *SALUTE*

Things u left behind unattended will be lost, why is it not happening to me?
i thought i left it behind where it should be, i kept my promise, now i'm breaking it.

Big Smile, Small Smile still a smile

Keeping myself real, keeping everyone around me. Experiencing different roles in a clique, what role is yours? some do the talking, some do the listening, some do the crazy stuff, some does the jokes, some gets joke about. Notice your role and enjoy it, memories like this never comes twice. Keeping optimistic is not easy, it's never easy.

So what if you're are there
so what?

That Barrier, Break that Barrier, Smash that Barrier...i'll tear it down with my own bare hands.

Music works wonders, the right song at the right time. I just love it when it happens.

i'm having a screwed up day!!! damn i cant understand shit. Fuck u PopeyeMotherfuckingfreak!!! u need a pair of sunglasses to hide that hideous eyes of yours. _|_ ( -.- ) _|_, screw yourself with a pencil A-hole.

Inspired by this song of YOUNG & WILD & FREE, sometimes i just feel i'm missing out alot!!! being mindful of what people think. Being young we should just fuck those thought and do what we suppose to do!!!! BEING WILD AND FREE!!!!!
We are at a generation of HECKCARE.

But then a Promise is a Promise, i don't break my Promise.
I'm a man of my words.
I don't break Promises
If there's a once, there will always be a second
So dun temp me, i wont fall for temptation
I'M NOT WEAK!!!

i'm going prove u wrong.

I hate this part of myself, i'll only start working hard when someone tell me to my face that i'm useless. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE LOOKING DOWN ON ME!!!!!!
DANG IT FUCK IT CHAO CHEE BAI

Fuck this i'm so gonna prove you wrong, whatever it takes i'm gonna prove u wrong.

Ditch the breaks ditch the music ditch everything!!!!!!
I'm FUCKING GONNA PROVE U DAMN WRONG
I'M GONNA DO THIS FOR MY FUCKING SELF.

I was asked "what makes a guy fool around"?

I could not answer that question, i do not have an answer.

If i were to give a wild guess, here's my opinion

Here is some facts maybe u girls do not know,

All Guys are perverts believe me on this, i'm a guy i know
99% of guys masturbate at least once in their life
60% of guys have to masturbate at least once every few months
45% guys masturbate everyday

Don't be going Disgusted, girls are the same. i don't mean by percentage, but it's proven that girls too are just as horny as guys. So what makes guys seen just much hornier. It's just that guys are okay with telling their friends what they did, girls do not. Girls keeps it to themselves. So next time if u hear it from your guys friends that they masturbate dun Go Eeeee~~~. Come on behind that closed door of yours, u might be going Wild too.

Back to the topic so why guys fool around?

I'll say it's society at fault,
I'm saying is, it's their friends, their environment that made them who they are. If you're a person whom get influence easily, you'll blend into your surroundings. Same thing, if your environments is full of guys that fools around you'll think it's okay to fool around too, since your friends are doing it too. I'm not saying all guys are easily influenced, how about those people whom have strong beliefs and people whom stand their ground in what they believe. They will be the one making the change, the ones that influence others.

Another point to be made, the importance of Sex. Youths in our generation have taken sex to a whole new level, right now pornography could be access by any age with just a click. With curiosity how can anyone not seen pornography before? Once seen you would want to try it right? There comes the crave for their first time having sex.
Sex is like a drug, once u tried you would think it's okay for the second time. Without proper idea what sex is, u will get hooked and it's gameover! Right NOW many youths just Gamed over.

I told my mom this,


ken: When i get married i don't want a Fancy Diamond ring i wanna get a tattooed ring

Mom: WHY?!!! U crazy?

Ken: Whats wrong with getting a tattooed ring?

Mom: Everything!!! what would the girl's family say about it!!! that you're not capable of putting a ring on her hand

Ken: But if i get it tattooed ring, i know our rings will always be on our fingers, Even after death our rings will still be there. Even gravediggers dig up my bodies they cant steal my love for her.

Mom: What if your marriage didn't work out?

Ken: I'll know there was once a girl i loved so much i'm willing to die for, and that tattooed ring will be the prove of it

Once a man was walking along a beach. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful day. Off in the distance he could see a person going back and forth between the surf's edge and and the beach. Back and forth this person went. As the man approached, he could see that there were hundreds of starfish stranded on the sand as the result of the natural action of the tide.

The man was stuck by the the apparent futility of the task. There were far too many starfish. Many of them were sure to perish. As he approached, the person continued the task of picking up starfish one by one and throwing them into the surf.

As he came up to the person, he said: "You must be crazy. There are thousands of miles of beach covered with starfish. You can't possibly make a difference." The person looked at the man. He then stooped down and pick up one more starfish and threw it back into the ocean. He turned back to the man and said: "It sure made a difference to that one!"

What happens during these 26 nights that was never planned?

So whats with my craze about girls with tattoos? when a girl has a tattoo it just occurs to me that she's damn hot!!! I believe there's a reason for every tattoo. so what would be the reason for my first tattoo? Would i even get the chance to get one?

The first reason for my first tattoo. There's many ideas i have for my tattoos, i'm afraid of regretting it. So i guess i have to find the perfect tattoo for the perfect place. Where's the perfect place and perfect tattoo? i've seen many tattoos i loved.

tattoos to me is a form of Respect and believe

First tattoo i would like to dedicate it to my parents

Second tattoo i would like to dedicate to the love of my life

Third tattoo would to my Brothers...i truly believe the 5 of us will be brothers for life, i want u guys to know that I really hope there's something we could remember by. I remembered the time when we actually plan a logo for ourselves, i was actually quite serious about it. Now we came out of an idea to open a pub together, i was also serious about it. I wonder are u guys serious about it too?

Stand my ground, Nail my beliefs

Past few days have been feeling strong guilt towards the people i've hurt, especially you, I know i've taken u for granted, i guess it's retribution that i'm in this state, so what goes around comes around yeah? All i wanted to say is how sorry i am, i've ill-treated you, you wanted me to send u home but i have excuses, u wanted me to hold your hand but i didn't want to, u wanted me to have lunch with you but i had it with my friends. i guess i'm just too much of a bastard to be with anyone, i even have the guts to two time, i've truly regretted...really regretted. I'm sorry for blaming you for everything i couldn't do. Will there be a day when i could receive that much care from someone ever again?



I'm sorry

Last night, had a unforgettable dream. what are dreams? Are they reliable? People says what happens in the dreams appears opposite in reality. Isit the truth? I usually forget my dream, but why i could remember this particular dream. Why this dream?
Dreams about u had always been beautiful, Is this a sign? I'm very paranoid, i'm too affected. Would you tell me what is wrong?

5 Mac Chicken, 2 Cheese Burger, 5 Mac Furry. Is something i remember, what continues i shall keep it to myself.

I once had a horrible nightmare, there's someone chasing me with a gun down a street under construction. I ran with my life depends on it, from a corner my dad pulled me in, thought everything is going to be alright, Never to know my dad pull the trigger on my head. I Could still remember that feel of having a gun pointed at my head. I woke up straight after he pulled the trigger, all i could remember, i was crying without noticing.

i was once boy
now i am man
with amounts feeling
living in a different world
i wonder what would happen
when i grow old
who would be at my side
would it be you
for the days we have spent
the smile on your face
the times we ran
the tears we cried
the rainbows we saw
the fireworks we've seen
it's nearly gone
but yet found
it's hard to loose
once given up
but,
and yet i've return
i wonder how it's going to end
wonder how much time i had left

D@y one,

Had a awesome plane ride even though it's my second plane ride, i'm still afraid of taking plane rides, few thousands feet above sea level. Damn, after i enter the plane i'm already planning how to escape when there's a terrorist attack or a engine break down. AFTER stepping out of the plane, FUYou!!! Chills Cold shiver Ice blizzard hailstorm, it mother fucking hell a-hole cold. The weather makes genting pussy, genting = pussy weather. Took a bus ride to suzhou, got to say the canal here is fking different from singapore's canal. i bet fish could live in their canal, in singapore you could only find dead bodies.

D@y two,

I'm fucking tired, i'm fucking tired, i'm mother fucking tired.

D@y Three,

Birthday celebration, we had KFC idea.....the chicken might be smaller in size, but the taste beats the ones in singapore. But their popcorn chicken SUCKS. well in all their dishes only 1 is good, the rest simply sucked max. And China people fking love soya bean, u could almost soya bean in all F&B restaurant. I feel like a fucking million bucks when doing shopping, LIKE A FUCKING BOSS WITH CASH!!!! I'm mother fucking RICH, hahas _|_.

Lets talk abt the girls here, 10 girls only 1 look decent, 20 girls only 1 looks HOT.
Conclusion singapore girls are much better.

Traffic here, what more can i say then their all mother fucking BIG BALL bosses. My balls shrink to peanut size just by crossing the road, I saw no one speeding? No Sports Bike? No SportCars? damn!!!!

Peace out from China(*Suzhou*)
Lost track of time, have no idea hw many days left.